epi sets of septu 1-16

7 rooms for seven brides

“we keep going back to that desert
we keep coming back from that desert

this time, we were not like the lizards
naked and scorched along the nile
scales on skin
measuring the anger of the sun

nor did we dream as the black arks
mired in the tunnels, under the earth
calling for vinegar and water

we were, at some point, rendered as shrouds, windswept and jaded
age long marked, out there in wasteland
a burnt wedding dress on a pole
stripped by sand storms and time

or as gravestones near forbidden gates
touched by meat and darkness

we might lay barren by the river ga
given in to our creatures
our flesh, muddied by soot and soul
our eyes; an atrocity of colour
our lands, rolling in fragrant tar

we are in our towers
facing our decans and lots
chained like the seniles or Prometheus
positioned with our tech and screens, our books and spells

we are the seventh room with one bed
ashen and laced, follower of a father that lives in caves
a deer that appears in the garden
vultures in a parking lot
motel room sex and red neon nights
smoke rising from the streets
seven beds for a room in the desert

II

we did not intend to ‘mercurial birth’ Tespu
he was not on our radars
but alas, here is he
shrivelled like a desert lizard on the mahjong table
black sand on his lips

we could count the bones of his ribs
his sim a charcoal yellowed

he is staged like a fetus
a fossil from temperate climes
choice figures on ancient numeral coins from the past, circles his skeletal crown
a clown, a colonial, a vesper, a vitz-nah’

No, we did not intend to invoke Tespu
there are no nubile images for him here
no delicate winters
nor ‘hidden’ barns
out there on scorched earth

hiding astronauts and nesting creatures in darkened rooms
nursing the photo plates of octopi and women
locked in a cycle of Tespu

III

he seems called back to the playground
nocturne and evacuated, in search of the girl in the blue dress

“ ec’k no, ek’ nim”

he read this is the gravel, written by her hand
she’s been biting her nails again.

Half burnt hell money stank the air
caught in mid degrade with the leaves
trapped in a place with no wind

he thought she saw her dress in the forest,
bound to a crooked staff that pierced the rivers edge

“ she did not know the name of its waters” saith the serpent

“ her waters hath dried up” saith she

Looking again, her dress was gone
only the many tentacled mass of night
complicating the hearth of the jungle
artificial suns, too far away to give any light or warmth

he continued the debris map along the Sile,
half scanning the highway with his mind
while prodding the earth before him with a crooked staff

4

a wrong house has entered tespu
and he now considers a miso soup
stolen from the olden cabinet
staged with an oblong fruit, a filthy pink, broken to reveal its citric heart
the candles in the room are on their last breaths
the wolf dog sleeps next to the girl in blue
the blind man is touching the mirror
he remembers tespu from that difficult time

“ you were trying to give out strawberry biscuits to the nurses, just after your mother died…”

tespu, who is no longer starved from nicotine, didn’t quite respond. he was contemplating a cigarette.

the girl had been fed with milk and honey. This is her fourteenth hour of sleep. We do not sense her, dreaming.

We were surprised the wolf dog was still alive.

We remembered him from the time of the ches men, when the whole neighbourhood had disappeared.
Craters, in place of void decks that once held Covid wakes.

There is a wasted sewer running beneath the house.

An ugly tunnel of tar, not unlike a vein that runs from beyond the stomach crypts of stutter gutt. An off tangent sun is hung in the distance, there were rampant fevers in the tropics, and a lake, famous for its blood and fresh sea cucumbers.

tespu had lapped here once as an animal
hairless and taunt, eyes, jaundiced and watching for the washing of feet

the blind man is hoping, the girl in the blue dress would know the words to call upon the following:

halogen lights in the late night supermarket
search lights in the skies
insomniacs drifting down strange and irregular aisles, opiated and gazing at species that hide among the wedding dresses

the dog is pacing by the foot of her bed
then suddenly leaves the room, grazing the feet of tespu on its way out.

the girl on the bed, stirs.

she dreams of the woman in the fish tank, in the coffeeshop, shutters halfway down. The water is overflowing. There are first responders in a large, unlit hall,black leather sofas pushed against the northern wall, ripped up, damaged, wounds exposing sick, yellow cotton. Digging into its orifice, she discovers coins, like fire, for the first time, and realises how many ferrymen she must pay to get home to her father, Septu.

5

there is moss, growing on the body of a young girl
but her flesh is more psychic than sex

she was staged in the night club

smoke machine, sluggish and weakly spewing
the lights, the colour of purgatory
all else plunged in darkness
a place with no water

but the body of the young girl is in hydro
tubes and vents and knots
misunderstood in gordion

she is a dreaming chamber for the sleep clinic
sheep, trapped in fish tanks
(water, overflowing)
a bride, in her gown, on the shore
the sea like the face of the moon

The girl in the blue dress points north

“your house, is out there…shrivelled, in the desert.”

This is her fifth hour, asleep.

6

the snow golems were brought in to carry wood, from the remains of the torched nightclub out there in the arctic, abandoned 352 days ago this night.

we did not find any bodies except the remains of a flag made from a burnt tuxedo jacket.

embriah’s psychometry placed it nearly a century before the nightclub and on a different moon. She could nearly grasp a rough shape to a name but was confused by an array of atmospheres, frozen oceans, arterial blood and salt winds instead.

“We should leave the sound console here.” She said,. “this place needs its gravestone and doorway.”

The golems carried the wood south, towards the Great Plains where naked ascetics from the Elijah caves would lie out there in the desert like lizards, upturned and soaking up severity and sun, stars and ice and night.

I’m the distance behind her, embriah felt the fleeting presence of a man on a horse. She turned to scan the white washed horizon.

Nothing. The storm was getting worse.

We would build a diner in the desert.
A waystation, by the time the next winter arrives.

We would bury the ‘mathematics of Tespu’ at the gates and place a bowl of water from ‘our womb, septura’ by the windows.

The candles would always be on their final breaths but their fire would never go out.

And we would wait, out there in the desert.

“The nightclub paid the first price and this house now, awaits her other.”

The blind man was startled by her soft voice. The girl in the blue dress sat up from bed and looked around for her wolf dog.

7

You’ll be drawn through lopsided hallways
drawn, as in, by the hand of a child

you might be missing a limb or an eye
you might be written as ‘having consumed pancakes’
She says you will be chased by a figure called fadre
but madre would save you

in the dining hall there’s a requiem
dinner guests in glass tux and sheer stockings
feather boa bondage murals
glasses full of black coal

tespu would be served as a dish
moist banana leaf, octopi, the fat of the lamb
a girl will be squatting over steaming rice

the meat will be the sound of tadpoles
breaking out of quantum physiques
‘ a braille necronomicon’ ‘a contraption’

lucid felines waiting under chairs for scraps from the mistress hand

you’ll be drawn into the playroom, on your honeymoon
past vanilla latex and over used spreader bars
the water boarding bed has soil and flowers stolen by the river ga

you’ll be bound into a book
into the figment of a shops’ imagination
your masters name is ghos_haus
he’ll only touch you with a laced hand

You will be operated upon by girls in blue dresses
fine dining, carefully inserted into your nest

If you should die on the table
a wolf dog will bring you back

she will wait for you by the banks
no matter how long she has to stay away from her charge
who is now having breakfast with milk and honey
in a bedroom full of blind men

8

her young body is covered with microbiology
mostly insectoid, abysmal, entangled in quantum

Tespu is in an induced coma in the cupboard.

The blind man is taking photographs of the girl, gradients shifting under black light.

the images develop inside him. terraforms, liminal markets, bombed out buildings, discotheques. He switches to video, memory nodules, nervous systems.

This causes Tespu to begin his fever. A necessary phase for his work below.

“Where is honey?” the girl in the blue dress asked, looking under the bed.

“Tespu is feeding her in purgatario. She needs strength, guarding you…”

The blind man turns on monochrome mode, bringing haze to the desert.

the ascetics retreat to the caves,
to shed skin,
to grow fur,
to bathe wolf-dogs

This causes Tespu to become water

seeping from the cupboard, up the stairs, pooling softly under her bed, a mirror, gazing at the sky

her young body is covered with ‘ordo cymasia’

nano-fibres is the text as fingerprint as scab
lines of smoke, thread like, from sweat gland
hormones released like a night flower

This causes Septu to follow the scent.

9

the ninth key

“ in the kingdom of trees, a splintered hand is a talisman”

the sea had sensed the hut, built with burnt wood by the hands of golems, whose skin craves for ice; with hearts longing for hypothermia.

through subterranean density, her waters move
seeking out the seeds planted by null, the first patient of house septura

She had given him his pale blue pigment, his cramped hands, his skeletal manner, his first books on post-one thousand one hundred art.

By the third night of silence, he began writing asemic, responding,in part to the scent of nocturne flowers, drinking from the meridians, rivers and interstellar corridors snaking inside him.

The wet of soil on his hands reminded him of his time with the corpses. When his tongue had gone numb and when he had lost his ability to ‘see into the many atu’

He would not eat for three days.

an anthologeist from a future time would interpret his fasting as “a vigil with the lord in his tomb.”

other off-world philosophers would say he was merely waiting for septura to produce enough milk and honey to feed him, to give him strength for the guarding.

“In the garden of talismans, null is the tree”

the criminals from the shore will find refuge in his swampland but in exchange for safety, they would do his bidding.

a boy, who would become ‘the finale priest’ would dream of his father in the hut, handing him a sword. a phoenix, burning with a strange green fire would be freed from its cage behind the hut. It was not immediately clear if ‘the father’ was null himself.

drug addled seers would say the phoenix was ‘septura in her pre-resurrection form’ and ‘the father’ is the figure of fadre that would hunt down Septu in the mansion during a ‘manic episode.’

“Do you want something to eat?” Septura asked the pale blue boy.

“I need to get back to my sister.” He replied, after his fifth day of silence.

X

“In the septurian continuum, the stars follow the movements of bodies on ‘earth’ “

The Lord plays a broken, sand covered piano in the contemplative hours of the pub. It’s walls, made from burnt wood brought in from winter deserts, give off a different scent when this piano player is around.

There is blood on some of the yellowed keys. The lords’ tempo is unhurried, tones accustomed to long suffering.

“You want some wine, boss?”

The barkeep couldn’t tell if he was slowly shaking his head or simply swaying to a quiet but discordant passage.

There used to be black stones on the wall of this hut that could tell the time.

They now sit in a dark wooden bowl, scratched as sigils, runes, dice, surnames.

“Do you remember that wanderer?” The Lord suddenly said, and the barkeep realised he had stopped playing the piano.

“The one looking for a disco in the arctic?”

“Yes…the blind one.”

“ I remember him.”

“The walls of this pub is from the remains of that disco. And the blind one will soon be passing us by.”

The barkeep poured himself a hot rum with stout and milk.

“I’ll take that wine now, my friend.” The Lord said.


11

“Etre-sorn
vi ley ta qua non set
con bula ret tu net
moa le tu red” – prayer for the loss of vagrants

Fadre
the painting frames are half-built
but the tape reel is running with no evidence of voices

as an aeging frame, I’m still half built
painted by the hand of Tuu

Madre
the black songs are not my enemy
but there are hours that are suspect
of coins tipping the scales
of voices calling me from the bush

Sistaar
the dog has a cone on its head
both ice cream and plastic
It has lost its masters’ voice

brother
as you revolve in the heavens
I am a childless channel
I have lost the powers I once loved
and those I love now are too young
or in wrong orbits

12

R

the man from the hawker grid
diagonal from fruit shop
recliner in chairs that lost its straps
cones to visit me at the playground

He tells me he tried to jump into his fathers grave but was pulled back
he misses his sister
and finds no point talking to chicken rice sellers

“Remember,” he says, “Jesus is all around…the lady and the dog…” R grabs his own wrist “(unintelligible)…take….Jesus won’t give…”

we might find ourselves later
(in astral)
walking the same circle but never meeting at the same point

I did not jump into my fathers’ grave because it was a fire
my sisters are still around
and the point of the chicken rice family is the brother in law
who thinks I’m a preacher

13

the blind man in the bedroom
photographs the mirror

the sleep clinic receives the image

he says to an indefinite ceiling, “the girl in the blue dress is gone in search of the she_wolf and I cannot find the door that finds them”

There are silences.
Tinkling of a piano

the mirror photographs the blind man against a green screen wall
the sleep clinic superimposes a boat unto grand carpet
the temperature in the room sub_zeroes

“ the maiden is in the frontal robe”
the blind man understands the command. retrieves a spade from the antique

He is walking through snow

*Silences outstretched like lazy yoga

He passes a playground
A bald man is talking to R
R tells the bald man about his sister

A woman and a dog and Jesus become subject matter

The blind man enters a garden
follows the wet prints of the dog
and the scent of ashes, fire and wine

Two fathers that cannot be reached in the flesh
‘Is heard of’ between smoke breaks

There is the distant fragile sound of the piano again…

14

(Data centres whir)
(backlog drop)
There are flat screens flanking the command corridors
every flicker, a convoluted map or fetish face or nursery rhyme

There are fat, curved screens in chambers
myopic lenses evoking scarred meat, smoked fluids, compressed roots

There are elongated bodies is artificial orbits
strand like, stranded, straddling severe droughts in harvested organs

There is milk on the bar top
a topless, headless Salome ‘in-eroto’
A line of suspicious powder on the windowsill
A singing bowl full of black stones and strange markings…

“The Lord walks through a fog of incense with a wolf”

15

every time I gravure
a church hymn hums in my spleen

she is a warm flame in a sepia room
a spider in an eye socket
a barrage of lace and garter

every time I softcore
I become liminal space
a screensaver field
of VHS statues

the skin of the land is a pink in decline
a river of detours, a passing vine
a spice we drink from lava bathrooms

every time I mind-craft the sex room
I happy birthday the world
candles blown out by blind animals
the song of obese coughing

black tar man arrives with soil for the garden
the bloated man receives his medicine

16

when will i see you
again?

when will we share
precious

mukbang?

are we true
lovers?

or just
friend rice?

are you the pig
and
I
the sty?

are you the meteor
and
I
the sky?

when will i see you
again?

when will we share precious

melatonin

S-letters (fractured narratives / miscellaneous time cycles) end 2022-2023

menthol powder

cigarette smoke

soft cologne 

wafting through

unlit rooms

ice vapor night 

a gang of disembodied voices 

spirits circling the senses 

/

I have everybody’s blood in me 

You were born in the time of my mothers death

“She who is cared for by computer systems” 

creature on autopsy table

bones luminous

zoological code not found

rotate my body

in zero gravity

view the specimen

find its neural network

part of its tail bone is broken

stinger, or genital

severed

I refer to a bad signal screen

data set confused

spitting back notions of

de-calibrated spirits

obscured workshop mirrors 

crystal fracture hanging from false ceilings

a cripple moves through the dark

to a window with short orbital cycles

I can hear the humming in my bones

the autopsy table is warm

/

a worm tone

leftover food

one forgets to light joss sticks

insect pitch shifting 

I forget closing hours 

this is not a place to find life at night 

night is a place that surveys life 

how quickly the pink light sinks into blindness

discard the film archives

discard medication

the furniture is full of spirits 

waxen figures invite us to liminal supper

caught in the cycle of dusk light

sundown wailing gives way to silence

/

we eat quietly

we chew quietly

the cup which is for blood

is stained with iodine 

we sip quietly

we pause in light blue corridors 

she is not here

but her dress is hanging

she is a

void example

she is a

make believe

she is spread naked on plastic

white furred creature hanging on chains 

the candles are burnt out

the scents are vacant

I no longer see the strange angels

a  window

both

oblong and gone 

null

of storm night

sand front 

plastic tarp over wet wood

stack

Of books

full bleed

 dirty brown water colour from

 Chinese bookshops

devotional ink

haphazard flowers

 in the back lane

picasso, bacon, horrible face masks

odd circulation of lights and carousel horses

sea sick songs from ufo machines 

null

obsidian rain coat

hooded art form

swamp awareness

distortion figures by the bar

atu zero to twenty one 

keys reopening doors

/

now is the downward trajectory

power in abandoned states

blue light rods

white light rods 

pointing down pathway

runway

exit

there’s too much soft tissue in the stomach 

dim memories of the sickened tree

this body knows how to recall hauntings

this body knows how to ‘empty, bound’

for the creatures with the masks 

the bloated naked Hors d’oeuvres

the gut becomes the dangerous garden

agony near swaddling clothes 

/

I send data through dead channels

terror eaten by 404 

I seethe

I taut

I simmer near death beds

broken hearted people carrying animals

rain misunderstood as mists 

/

the vein searches the dried river

roots, blinded by 

low body temperature 

I show you vacant arks

stringent crates 

vessels, upturned and sleeping 

we are forgetting with tensile strength 

our legs weaken with hypoxia 

/

o pulses, erased, lacklustre 

o behemoths, cowering like addicts

‘my soul groans within me’

speech, reduced to syphoning

now is the decline

absentia 

now is the tentative and frightened

lights of the earth flickering

powers, ode and gone 

//

Do not raise your children next to dirty stairs 

a cluster of cops on an elevated garden 

huddled like a pack of

sniffer dogs in tactical gear

noses and calibrated tweezers 

picking up cigarette butts

they want evidence

they want persecution 

office crowd / tourists watching the circus

maybe it’s performance art

SWAT team in

in order to

leave 

astral safe house

I am given the knives

gestures / commands 

tactical/ ritual

spirits as allies

I only ask for knowledge

guiding principles

courage

outside, 

into the night of

uncertainty frequencies

as if

dangerous powers

 emerge from 

abysmal quarters

invasive / unseen 

haunting shifting streets 

/

I only ask for

navigation 

the shield of thy presence 

blueprints for the ark of me

This is not my design

but the design I’m called into

towards

becoming

psychic structural forming  

boundaries of the body erased

the night mode of being 

journeys between points

carrying families

survivors

refugees 

I only ask to be hidden

in the shadow of your wings

delivered by your Hand

to mysterious kingdoms 

oneiros hotel

toned with the palette of

 pale flesh 

banquet of the astral 

feeding my roaming body

animal medicine

spherical / shaved & sliced

in frothing beige waters

green strands

 hanging / sloped on wooden rods

small plastic tong with broken arm

small plastic pincers, delicate 

peeling off paper thin vegetal

(plating on dry banks 

moist rice mountain)

do not touch the river edge

drink from the giving  bowl 

/

O’ distant tree 

crucifixion / celebration sign

clothed with the colour of

 desert sand 

o’ cousin

carrying the death of

 uncle

O’father

who once roamed the western lands 

what are the names of angels

revealed to me?

silent drifters in the wedding hall

critical voices from the past

chosen to cross my paths 

I return to

daylight waking hours 

bedsheet distressed 

( no memory of struggle )

but hairline meridians

                                of light dissolving loss/

/

sometimes

I have to dig deep for 

grim reminders

 for the surface animal would scarcely believe

these are the agents of ageing 

slow and perpetual

 laboured breathing

night by night by night

waking and sleeping and waking 

I try not to get caught

in the slow and perpetual 

densities of  waiting

yearning

wanting

long form exposures  to shrouds and nights 

I scour about

 in the land of the living

like a  lost child, searching 

never finding

voids, yawn inside

such densities of waiting

longing

wanting 

‘mourning and weeping in this valley of tears’

I’ve long left my prints on death’s gate 

white knuckled, looking in 

“not yet.” my Master says 

I know

I know

so I take the long roads back

into dark halls and magenta lights 

to dissolve passing grief in dancing

I can only pass the time

seeking out the presence of  pulse and static 

softening my dark ages  in their young light 

dissolving the self in dancing

has a kind of spiritual

/

there are 40 desert years in the man

a man in the 40 year desert 

there’s a man in the desert of 40 years 

40 years of deserts in the man 

the man in the desert is 40 years 

/

into stigmata hands

I bare my flesh

evolving from wounds 

only orphans understand 

the sound of my soul is shaped by 

death rattle 

boundaries erased by flatlines 

such pain is a glowing star 

such western lands too distant 

such searching too futile

I am both

a medicine man

and a man 

made from medicine

/

on my right

oneiric church grounds 

with her old guard

 (the rambling priest)

exultations incoherent / off pitched 

altar boys confused

a great lantern raised by chains

into dome ceiling 

ascension satellite 

I’m moving slowly 

 in a private hire car

a drive by

down gravel path 

 on my left a concrete graveyard 

a funereal family / extended from me

goths have gone white lace

 alignment to seraph gates

this is after all death season

madre who never comes home

madre going Home for good 

I cannot cross the threshold

I’m sent back to the crypt of 

damaged angels 

golden child blasted by God 

there is murk here but also sunlight 

after all, the promised path 

eternal life / adjacent  to endless 

sonar for the blackened depths

I am backseat / fringe magnate

 spirit flower cemetery 

I am meat and addiction

wandering the interstices 

passing through conversion structures 

/

the psyche takes on 

oneiric form

spirits secure in the dreaming house

the unhealthy branch takes on father form

banished beyond the window, 

confusion on the ledge

against horizon, altered time

foreign galaxy, after space 

the cosmic wind takes him away

gordian knot untangled  

unsound fruit 

cut

I do not panic

I do not grieve

the way I grieved 

when they burned his body

blood and flesh on the street 

is not his 

but mine

a continuity of 

sickened flesh severed

I tell the unseen “ he is already dead”

this here,  is my paschal mystery 

/

hanging on to the vestiges of wet flesh

there is aural volume in my blood

Lights and lazers humming in sinews

bodies, swaying, moving, snaking 

In the astral realm

my room/heart is emptied out

construction supervisors 

pointing to wooden structures

organise the purge

cockroaches, 

fat on the meat of failed history

are chased and killed with mist

Into obscure places they run

but stay unhidden 

I’m paralysed, tense in a crater of mud 

maggots and dead leaves stuck on my skin

my fat is stripped from my body

a new identity 

my genitals are gone 

I’m pulling myself up to higher ground

23 nov 2022

a writhing, magnetic coil in the sexth pool

the child drew the sign ‘automatically’ 

directed by some unshaped force inside 

but the choice to bite his finger and use his blood was his alone

I got some cake on my feet

don’t you think I smell so sweet?

I got done cake in my pocket

left side next to cash

roll it like sushi

smoke it like hash

All the tech is disconnect

.

she is the vegetal root and psychedelic fruit  

Animal spirit ritual

cybernetic flora and fauna and fae and phantom 

Blood horn 

an hour as the wolf of Christ 

penetrating wounds of purgatory 

martyr brides, small ravers, mini pvc dresses

marked and trancesexualized 

post war ballroom haze : broken techno program

space time displacement

we move from house to House

S letter 

this astral store house has grown

long runways of white walls and blue shelves

sectors for childhood playthings, silver disc’d temples, frequency wetware 

beneath a display of anime/erotis/militia 

dress codes

a white cube with doorway opens

the cats, once hidden there by a staff, are gone

I learn of his termination (one more personnel down) 

Who then, guards the mouth of this place? 

I cut through the crowds to reach it 

looking out for thieves / battle mongers / arsonists 

the backpack I carry grows heavy

I open it to question it’s contents

and find the soft weight of both cats

is it feline waste at the bottom of the bag? 

Is it blood and placenta? 

I let the cats  out to sprawl / prostrate / bend about me

It’s been over two decades since I buried them

their presence

softens the time inside me 

a white cloud over pit and stone 

like an otogoya

(after 31 earth days)

or twenty months of ‘departed time’

wax hardens in my streams

around my gut, a death mask

clothes soaked in chemicals

or buried in the fields

pastel, protruding from blackened soil

moist wood, monolith goth

bell tower / starving man 

the drone of mortier

lugging on 

o wounds of Eros 

tempers mud 

life leaking 

dull throb epiphany 

like an otogoya 

a coalesce corpse 

surrealisme spirit

fresh compost 

endless river 

last of the holy water 

anointing loss 

touching a light out of reach 

o otogoya

erected, 

facing alter 

a son,

dying in the arms of mother

the drone of mortier reaches the humid shores of night. he transited from winter storming howls to lapping waves on muddy shores, birds of paradise, their distorted songs, causes an inter spatial shift in his starched, angular skeletai, his eyes, once bright with grey light, dims in the darkness of the sea. Salt air clings to his shrivelled lungs,

 as he remembers drowning near the barren islands, jagged cliffs looming like monstrous geological teeth, smoke and ash and tropical disease 

an interior clock with deceptive tempo, begins as he fully exits the arctic realm of mortier.  A new fever takes hold. 

“this is arc/sects’ world, and while I have appeared here, this is not where I need to be.” 

extra/inter:spatial existence 

bodai ossifai 

a disintegration of the body into static formulae

&

(it’s ensuing medical crises)

other flesh frost biting / bones trying to ether

arctic fragility zones

knocking on the domes of 

thinning iice

ventilator failures 

groundless zero hum

winter storm erosion  

0 polar club burial

powering down powering down

last of the pulses searching for night but finding naught

desperate end twangs to keep blood moving

before it all turns

blinded

white 

summa con ritua

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madre oneiros 

time gap betwixt us

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Alterterrestria

psyberconscious

muddy blue ink smeared in a grey pool 

of static intelligence

as a girl encoding this heart

pillar (partner) of flesh and datum

by my sidereal 

I’m we approach the elevator

POST-GARDEN 2023

point of exit

feels like end 2008 again
when data discs were corrupted
and systems collapsed around
bricks and mortar and packing boxes
gates that open to unknown quarters

reaching the edge of my night
all whom I knew were scattered astray

spirits and passions fleeing the scene of home
houses losing their warmth
histories cheapened and sold below cost

childhood as abstract lifeline
a timeline resetting
colours and resin and plastic
filling the void that was fadre

I’m nearing the end of my rope
with crook and staff I depart

now the data is in my blood
suctioning off the tendrils of loss
my boot is caked in clay
the bed, folded and burnt

“blessed are those who wander
blessed are the broken hearted”

I follow the path of cloud and fire and sand
I’ve seen the shape of God in the pyre

datum is stacked between leather
the hardened skin of dead creatures
lines and formula and landscape blots
modes for variable futures

the angel/agent ascends reality
cloaking strangers with blankets
(They shall become unknown / banished)
but me, his hand does not touch
I am judged to be uncovered
the blood of the lamb on my doorpost

there is virtue in sedation
when truth emerges from cryo
there are maps to unfound cities
blueprints for next stage mansions

there are moths fleeing the closets
having had their fill
of dead mothers dress
I am their embryo at the end of a tunnel
it is not light but latitude I see

in-Luna pregnum

throats are dry
(how many voices distorted?)

/astrologically displaced/

one in me weaves synthetic lingua
through datum departed before my time

one in me
hears the aged
the blur fidelities

but, warm
memoriam’s cradle

/an infant boy/ asleep
against my chest

one of me walks with him
tender
genteel
in the church of my ancestors

glow, softens
the turmoil heart
the cravings / adjacents

one is softened by oneiric love

I burn through
blood coin
death coin
viral coin

seekers returning to elden roots
the past is white and blind

one in me, empties to be full

my frame turns cold with
your language
your gestures
disillusions
path work

one in me builds
the metered house
in which you might pass

one in me
is removed

state dispersal
variant
inversed

o’earth
dis-coil thy static
o’alchemy
wing’d / blood typed / cup/ breed

return from access
worm
cipher

proceed through neuronian sky
orbit
pulsar

with standing stones I’m there
pre-life faun
with concrete citadels I’m there
post-mortem form

bi-locations

fire in the desert
smoking mountain
obscure realm

the child sleeps on my breast

to gather
the salient

to comfort
the dismounted

the body as
elementals in microscopia

-bitrate species

macro topologies

neural network alteration

nano
tachyon
sine-nodal

I was disassembled
reinstated
in granular time

post-gravity wells
I’ll love them

bride
/chamber/
prisoner
waveform

gone out with a lamp to the grave

to return as dispersion matrice

inverse
polarity of
gravity

pull of the
interior

versus

weightless
physica

slow
frequency
oscillations

poles of:
numbness / neutropics

the widow’s spider
is now

window
to
the spiders nest

of geomantic forms
quad- locationed

both
lost.enfound
hollow / hallowed

velocities, crowned

Gahara’s world
black lashed
in orbits of disarray

damaged clusters
asteroid belt

gravity fatique
dormand tones

there are houses that reveal themselves to me
time and again

charred meat
Oil and fat
For the long haul

women, institutionalised
subjects from the sleep clinic
as artefacts, specimens

cross into the circle
(There will be a sign, crestfallen)
cross the quadrant
(there will be water on concrete)
drop into sepia and septa
( she smells of sated powder)

a word (or formula)
was spoken first

valsidor

then the fever
viral Elevtric
then the basement / hanger
catacombs

the lion carved from marble
the only objet in this world

sub-liminal
abandonment crypt

I think I am she
the girl from the box
without genitalia or desire to taste sweat

there’s a forest in our upper tract
I am called by sleep clinic
years after waning on theta moon
years after snake cables

a machine determines narrative
a lake of fire as skin
the house is unclean with insects
ankle deep in hidden water

millions of threads in my gut
sad neon, vacant girls , fish tanks

sired by numbers
ovulating masses

I am her
seeking valsidor
or valsidor
seeking me

here I am
am I he?
on the warm bed
waiting

growing soil

“they are fresh skinned
new blood
roaming/romance in
‘ the city that mind built’
minefield esoteric
genre non-conforming.”

six-wing’d / radio ballast

she wakes up in the metal box, just like the child of the bride. adjacent to red strobing light. Fetish club gadarah. She smells the nectar of unpolished sweat, rubber mistresses, body fluid suits, sounds of alien intelligence fucking. There is no temperature in this world, only temperaments, ever modified and psychedelic.

father as presence
erotic pins and sacral needles

mother as prescience
salient / surrogated

the nympho in the box as nubile flower
barb wired, glitching, eager, synodal

she climbs out of the box
into a sea of whirling bodies
as objects, throbbing
as butoh, fasting

the man on a horse is sterile in the doorway
he is waiting for her awakening
he solicits rings
worn by the lore of old
ever nebulore
ever xol
ever xor

she feels him in her dis-oria
he senses her lash code spectrum

they will winter the dense-floor
they will enter depth sensorium

12.5 capacity

sunlight touches the roof of my mouth
the lung inflates
in the hours before
I’m a vibrating hunger organism
slipping between the realms, the legs, the trapped motel room
the noise undulates
a medicine chassis
a cabinet of unreal

I’m the point five
moving past the goaler after earthquake
the twelve on their thrones
the twenty four in the circle

prostrate
cubits
face east
half-measure

candles, angular before first light
brother tapping wood
calling out signs
the red Christ passing through walls

144,000
& am I obscured among them?
I sit in the tabernacle
salt and water become holy drink

12.5 capacity
I’m a pillar of static in the jungles of eor
a burnt circuit board is a blunt psyche
I’m still a meatless beast
I’m still a cyclic garden

Does one belong to the altar
positioned from wet earth?

the body, full of symbols, collapses
there’s a lizard in my coffee

we wouldn’t drown
I set it free
in return, electricide
in return, false numbers
in return, slower pacing
in return, convex stasis

there’s the ever shifting
(obfuscation)
and the ever centre
(wedding)

all
congruent
.
all
collating
.

there are designs to the daily myths
*replicating online


*an ally \ aelai

codes and contours / shape of sleep
human remains in my body
*a blood song
I won’t decode

so yes
I long for eternal rest

but / yet
here I am

in heat
*heirophantic

almost deplete

“For when I am weak then I am strong.”

I follow my namesake
to Iconium
to Antioch
Corinthians
Caves

Will I be buried by lions?
Will the raven bring me bread?
Will I find myself
in the third heaven?

there are Thrones
there are Dominions

mother and father and brother
angels ascending / descending

“Where they go, I cannot follow”
I’ve said this before

so here I am
scorched earth

here we are
turning the clocks
converting context
belie, baffled, biding
yet
trusting in The One who sent us

I parse from a place
with no ground

no burden or backlash of flesh

coagulation
corruption
contraption

here,
the wisps and waveforms are
blurred by light
effervescent

as glare and scene
a weightless stream

I’m a fever mirage

no bones
trap me
I await nexus
I await pulse
an order for futures

where to?

my blood is mild poison
strong medicine
but not as strong as
the one who sent me

I wait

as the others on earth
pass from
house to house

they are done with my name
moving on
gates, opened by masters’ hand

It’s ok

I am the sentient
colourless
the world passes away below
they leave

I parse this orphan house
the fortean mess
I return on command
muscles, coiled, clock work

I’m tired
a low grade diatribe

I forget my name of soil
I prefigure lightning
silence, in waiting
the others, in transit
they leave

where next?

I’m post-figure
indexing the gone
calculate closure
cadaver
of corresponding signs

“and the time, passes away”
I await the time

on oneiros streets
there are no more vehicles

only clusterfukkas of
painted youth
wetting their denims
climbing on steel carcass

fighting up ahead
broken bottles, cheap wine
slashers
oranges rolling on tarmac? blood petals

pulses, absent
deadly silence
a parade of mongrels

we hang with elong masses
extraterrestrial flesh bites
radial gangs

I miss the smoke from their mouths
I’m obscured from yin pussies
the predator, fully drowned
the moon a screeching banshee

eclipsing life purpose
solace in rust and stings

emanations
from the dunes

rock formations, humming

night herself as
ultrasonic wave

singular
mutant

time as distance as
geologic clocks

early cooling of old earth

we follow fire in the sky
pigments on cave walls
where prophets fast

a man on a horse does not bring bread
only the ravens do
only the wild beasts, aid
in digging graves

lion
serpent
oracle

.no.

the meteor brings not, fire
a signum from Planet X,
reaches

I, atrophy, density
I, spreadeagled, totem

the punctuated skin
the modals
node
no

orb of light under sand
orb of light on
post-ocean floor

she is risen
(tar)
she, of amalgams
pre-ice age bone
lights flashing in daemon sky

barefoot we walk like the dark
desert and snowfall

we search

“it’s not the trajectory that has changed but the ship”
conversations

unidentified order
unknown priest collar

I see his southern body
in a chair

“occult’
one of us says
one of us repeats it
‘occult’

“I’ve been 15 years active”
thirty years attuned

the language is blurred
language of light
language of sound
words, buried in fog
of neurons, neutered
but in repair

In my waking days, I considered it
visiting the priest
the way I did after mother died

in these recent hours and nights
I recall

the south facing face
the eastern man of dream
maybe imposter
maybe Opus Dei

I’m sharing protocol
“I centre myself” (in sun light)
I’m explaining decades
the order I believed I served in
of times in red neon and obscure signs
Akashic tours of duty

he, eastern face
or an unseen voice
leans in close

‘awaken’

the word is clear.

“awaken”
/
I awake

bedsheet twisted off mothers bed where I sleep

I’m partially repaired
but the vibrations of my six syllable name
has changed

a deep spatial config
maybe trans-Plutonian

a mantra
I chant my own name
an irrational prayer

it’s morning
good shepherd Sunday
my breathing is laboured
mildly cold sweating
heat and storm clouds in the north

I cannot walk far
It rains

But I’m back in the house of The Lord
to the bones of my parents

“He is there with his crook and his staff
his cloak, his sandals
brown tunic
He says nothing

I follow the man who teaches me silence

I’m too old for the seminary
but maybe I’ll seek
the man from Opus Dei

I’ll face west
and he, east

and I will speak of the post-pagans
whom our Father never forgot
who already share in the same Spirit
despite being known by other-names
despite neon eyes
despite alt-sex
despite the endangerments

with them, on the outside
I am in

outside my forms
leaning in

in oneiric scenes

to say
“awaken.”

out age

signs of septu

the sign of tespu appears in the morning

like pink rash on pale skin
braille on the borders of armpits
scars as cipher
acupuncture maps
lash marks of
The Word of The Lord

the sign of Septu appears as
fevers in the sky
star field concordance
a glacial path of bodies
hyper-reduced
forms in blue

floating

in the morning
she will come to know
the size of tespu

-conservation forests
-psychoactive deserts
-outposts in the arctics

dancefloors buried in snow
slow cooking vat of bastement
bodies on a roof

airless
Ice cold

facing constellations

“let us gather the spirits into this house”
the sisters of Septu would say
their body fluids adding to the river
where we drink from wayside
counting on the signs of septu at daybreak

night of the septu

where are the brutal agencies
coiling beneath my mounds of fat?

are they not hungry?

hunting and sweating and looming over bed frames

nailing windows shut
adjusting oil lamps
taking photos

where are the stench animals
that wet the corners of
motel room psyches
mouths full of smoke
loins heavy with savage mud?

are they not on the edge of menace?
are they not reciting lullabies in little girl voices?

folding white floral paper
cloning cell phones
touching reptilian skin in the heat of the grave

O’ how quickly they come and go
in their taut, spidery cheongsams
elephant trunk shorts
the dizzy sprawl of purple lace
slendering arm of sores

brutal are
the agencies of flesh
making home
in the skull of lard
in the shadows of a fester moon

where are her mistresses?
her flowers in ziplock?

bodies
in
purgatory red

mouths full of swords and mirrors?

are they not thirsty?
ad delirium in the desert?

sweating and looming over beds of malice
lips, curled in the manger
slowly twisting the knife

current fragments

I face the heavens but cannot breathe

So I turn to the right hand Path

where

Once, sand gathered at the head

Of the bed

from the shore a day before, where a

Dog comforted my boreal

Grief ( or

Of

Soil from

The garden of the dead)


I turn to the left hand path

Banks

Of thirst

from

rivers beneath , starving tangible dark growth  

lifeless crib

rigor mortis


Face down, I avoid the ecstasy of hogties 

devoid of blood pulsing 

My drowned avatar 

my criminal

my star flag of David 

films of final breathing


this shoulder then, still knows the damage of crosses carried 

that dangerous temper

the agitation of cancer, stricken 

the sounds of last stations and hours

  • to the centre then, the ancient 

mortier of dirtied light and static 

father of white noise

glaucoma gift for a 4K world


I

she bends her spine backwards

she in her glitter, sequined, crystal top 

a limbo rock 

wavering form

inverse cobra 

she, with her two white men in layered suits

bank vault  bodies

I chase them out of the house 

( my motherlode / motherland ) 

“get the fuck out !”

but without the energy of rage or malice 

  •      it’s an emptying of the house  – to remain in sacred unlit spaces, untouch the debris 

the cold electrical wires sticking out of plaster

maybe a ‘time from before’ exorcised 

the comfort of vacancy

  • (backtrack) 

like a corpse on a bus is he

sits he in flesh and skeletal frame

 too small for starched white shirt

 blackened oversized pants

I can almost smell his

skin of wax 

hair hardened formaldehyde 

pale as the horse from endtime 

I sense he’s an otogoya 

coming back to life

dropping snake scales from our eyes 

to chase away squatting spirits from the house

making space for landscapes

“washing out the womb” 

40

the 40th venture of septu
(last from this timeline)
into final recesses / recess / recedingness

limbs lost / regrown
knees scraped by desert sand
frenched in rain / orbits cycling outwards, away from each other

the 40th wall of tespu
terminal / buried in lichen / redacted data

life slips from the phantom cab
bleeding out oil into cacti
minions stretch out under the stars, naked
some taken away by lights

drenched in rain

final species of plant medicine
shared among elders, younglings, distant watchers
orbits realign
planets disappearing into
sidelines / starfall

final gravity

last of the meteors

temporal zones for retreat
vernacular of the time bandit

39

39

next of the septus
closing the towering doors of the convention centre
waiting in the slim alleyway for the first expedition to return
the ageing ones, from afar, with their grocery bags, their children strapped and hidden from sight
Next of the septus, with hand drum made from tin
tapping the way ahead, a morse code to hidden intelligences

38

38

we moved through the vast hanger and found signs of the cities within

Subcultural artefacts, colour coded documents, symbols of prior cybernetworks, stacks of pointless currencies

there were elevators on street levels that led to underground corridors, glassed from the outer world like endangered creatures, cautiously handling plant medicine

37 or the partial exposition on septu

37

“He drags through the wet heat of day
into the vacant indoors
into distractions of red light and violence
he leaves the withered dream body half buried in the sand of memory
he offers it up to the god of deserts
flesh on a table, waxened, destroyed by time”

an incomplete exposition on the vehicle Septu, by its author.ity Irving Paul Pereira

Ï do not know exactly what I write, but what I write knows me”

data from dreams. revelations via contemplation. methods of self analysis. a mp to understand the terrain of everyday evolution.

Septu is, in spirit
a carrier / a ghost form
I project my concerns, appellations, considerations, processing into it
a he, a she, them , us, we , me
many, legion , as diverse as the mansion within born with this body
A mansion, whose doors lead to a greater reality
the outside word in an inner world, revolving around the axis of creations seed
(while my psyche is upset with literature)

Septu is incomplete as I am
we want to point our existence towards the completion
Which we will only reach at the point of physical death
And that is still only the beginning

So we continue ‘in fragmentaris’
A refusal to shoot straight, to be understood
how can we understand the true mysteries?

Septu is some kind of psychic form
transcendental , a delusion?, another species altogether
Septu dovetails into some kind of missionary being
I’m fighting wars ‘at the right hand’ but alas I’m only sleeping (& dreaming)
we mythologized the day , avant- garde the night missions

I am, we are, here but also not
‘In septu’ I can become much more than flesh
I can touch the hem of the First Born of Creations, First born from the dead
I am preparing for death (for I have touched the hem of her cloak)
but I am also very alive for I sip from the giving cup, the stream by the wayside

there are coat of arms, grimoires, images that move through Septu to me and vice versa

We corrode and corroborate

We are as immortal as all of you are
but to live this is to consciously live with and beyond the flesh
the flesh is a wall but the wall is an illusion

How could we forget that we can never ever truly die?

to remember this is to prepare for death with all our hearts, all our souls
this knowledge is in the key, the sword, the book of Septu
but it written only for me
You have your Septus
there are as many of them as the stars, impossible to count
but there is only one fountainhead