current fragments

I face the heavens but cannot breathe

So I turn to the right hand Path

where

Once, sand gathered at the head

Of the bed

from the shore a day before, where a

Dog comforted my boreal

Grief ( or

Of

Soil from

The garden of the dead)


I turn to the left hand path

Banks

Of thirst

from

rivers beneath , starving tangible dark growth  

lifeless crib

rigor mortis


Face down, I avoid the ecstasy of hogties 

devoid of blood pulsing 

My drowned avatar 

my criminal

my star flag of David 

films of final breathing


this shoulder then, still knows the damage of crosses carried 

that dangerous temper

the agitation of cancer, stricken 

the sounds of last stations and hours

  • to the centre then, the ancient 

mortier of dirtied light and static 

father of white noise

glaucoma gift for a 4K world


I

she bends her spine backwards

she in her glitter, sequined, crystal top 

a limbo rock 

wavering form

inverse cobra 

she, with her two white men in layered suits

bank vault  bodies

I chase them out of the house 

( my motherlode / motherland ) 

“get the fuck out !”

but without the energy of rage or malice 

  •      it’s an emptying of the house  – to remain in sacred unlit spaces, untouch the debris 

the cold electrical wires sticking out of plaster

maybe a ‘time from before’ exorcised 

the comfort of vacancy

  • (backtrack) 

like a corpse on a bus is he

sits he in flesh and skeletal frame

 too small for starched white shirt

 blackened oversized pants

I can almost smell his

skin of wax 

hair hardened formaldehyde 

pale as the horse from endtime 

I sense he’s an otogoya 

coming back to life

dropping snake scales from our eyes 

to chase away squatting spirits from the house

making space for landscapes

“washing out the womb” 

36

36

disorientation of the son, septu in hades

I’m emptied out, a soul fatigued by a fog that suffocates
embedded in the terrain of troubled sleep
the seekers are falling apart at the seams
their pastel oracle cards failing them
mini metallic dice to seal false fates
women who adored energies are weeping
shrouded figures behind them, imposing the weight of weariness

I’m pushing along endless unlit corridors
the mall is shuttered and abandoned
life sucked out of her walls
unable to find the way home

unable to find mother and father

I am without compass here
cut off from the loom
frustrated, restless, desperate, departed
in a place that is not theirs but mine

a dead man says he knows me here
from the time of neonmancy
I’m robbed of knowledge
I ply a trade that does not pay

I cannot find father and mother

there are no boats on Acheron or Lethe
the Styx is a knotted mess inside me
no stairways upwards or doorways out
I’m a child left behind in this colourless world
leaving bridal chamber for burial grounds

mother gets up from her wheelchair
but I’m not there to hold her
father is silent
I’m on a lost floor, maps confounded
wounded with perpetual loss
memories, false
sanctuary, crumbling
no signs or voices to lead the way
only hounds, barking without end

33

33

an arc of varied images but one desert
within me (or as I am, with it, is)
illicit substances grown by the heat of a star
presented in forking paths

candelabras, tabernacles, chandeliers, gateways
suspended in sunlight, in gardens

I am a storehouse of motifs

battling hunger
soft mourning
familiar furniture but different in scale
subtle shifting positions
the blessing of young flesh

placing frequencies in the hand of others
cradling the open wounded, diseases in the hallway

an arc of varied deserts but one image

32nd path of septu

I pass through the gates
that landed here before my time
artificial bodies of water

chlorine, garden chairs, elliptical headdress

I follow the motherlode but cannot keep up
spiral stairways, glimpse of ankle, almost calf
into corners disappearing
led into mysteries of the mansion
turquoise, marine atmospheres, a prescience in hidden rooms

her dress has changed
as death clothes are buried in landfills
I’m a bout of circular signals
like the sign on her forehead beyond the veil

I am fissures, breath rising from catacombs
but this is my world and not hers
I am in the dim places still
unlike her, luminous
I am still a shadow treading smoke and mirrors
the scroll of the arc that falleth from blackwashed wall
cathedral gotha, end night shores
the scratching of the trees in spectral moonlight
piercing fantomas, ever iteras

31 ‘ for m’

the first wave descended from circe ceiling
as if crawling out of a sun in the middle of a constellation
limbs and taut bodies stretched in black
moving like spiders to its target

Is this intervention or incursion?
Infiltration / intercession?

your wave was waiting in the prep room, on the verge of activation
I looked at you outside its door

I remember us
both belonging to one Breath

I remember us
our spirits as mirrors
grey light in grey light

I remember us
before we lost each other
before our moment of contact
standing side by side
before a familiar monument

84

84

a military man brings us to the restoration place

via detour
the street of whores and disappearing food

over the chosen one
who was buried under bridge

I recall
sweating the days in line for salvation

i recall tension and alchemy and apology and kneeling

I quietly study the ribs of a dying god

a man with holes in hands
heals the leopards

a ghost
moves through roof and the sunlit star

a holy serpent moves
through the legs of Madre

#99tespus #irvingpaulpereira

 

 

83

83

Horses in the twin of
dark
dear octo’r

wanders head
full of futile semen
and sea women

half of them with clean shaven dogs
wet bitches

Octo’r secretly dreams of impossible winters
flowers in ice

he touches the lamb of god and it sleeps

he touches the hand of Lilith and is saved

Octo’r dreams of a man
writing him poem letters

‘this is how you make a god’, he says

 

dear octo’r
dear octo’r
blue faced and semi automatic

#99tespus #irvingpaulpereira

 

 

orchestrations of random self nodes from an exotic mirror fossil

_

oil of my youth
of the sulphate self
like a mongrel
or hybrid theosophy
of meat suit made by
chronos and zephyr
who were once children of the void
of crawling chaos

osmosis of cell
of gehenna prime
senses spawned by secret insects
blameless and clawed
angel of napalm and nibiru

ale of my forefathers
strong, undercurrent of spices
of sprinkled cyanide
sodium lights
saccharine touchstones

old of my kind
of synchronised self
like a monad
or halcyon hauntology
of flesh core made by
hades and haniel
who were once children of the crown
of cryogenic constants
#poem #poetry #irvingpaulpereira

excavat

between
what you saw
and what you think you saw

the dragon in mid-flight freeze framed
the fisherman hung from tail
bait-less silver hook in air
great crimson beast
silent like a deaf dream

between the earth
and what was unearthed

excavated worship ground
red Russian lantern rising
jewelry box figure turning
plastic flesh eroded by time
iconic patron dirtied by soil
trampled by weight of human wandering

but the song of the saint
still plays on
despite dead batteries
her spirit singing
like a living library
a litany of psalms

between what you heard
and what you think you heard
_

#poetry #poem #irvingpaulpereira

medicine, as a sign of compound sex tapes 

young yellow pill
on her side
also flat on grey plains
hidden in plain sight
in pockets
on tour bus

a complicated tincture of numbers calculated in cell
one forgets to call the wheel watcher
alternate roads
bus waits opposite stations
opposite junglism
opposite drug dealing hot spots

where young yellow pill
half naked in sour light
pose with dry fingers
packs of mineral water cups
awkward and accommodating

cut sizes of maps
follow international paper guidelines
section off buildings and fuck closets
track the track marks

we dress the pharmacist with red emblems
we dress in pharmacology
we listen to chemtrails
erecting gauntlets, ecstasy
embellishments on virgin war paths

we sit where we may on the bus
never really leaving
aware of the tirade of wheel watchers
who check our call lists
reprimanding absent mindedness
while
secretly

we pray
that the young yellow pill
doesn’t turn into powder
_

#poetry, #poem, #writing
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